I am not talking about being saved. The thief on the cross was saved. I am talking about how to know God. How do you live for God? I spent lots of time thinking about those things. God gave me the time and place because I was seeking God with all my heart. It sounds like that is what you are doing. I do not have the answers. I just have the questions. I think the right questions get the right answers. But what God wants from me and what God wants from you can be completely different. That is why I like to talk about it. It helps me as much as anyone.
The part that bothered me was after God had changed me so much I was still aggressive and confrontational. I am still rough around the edges. But I think God wants me that way. I spent time talking with many people. I had some good conversations at Pat Robertson's house. I did not get much from him but the other people around him. I did not think him or any of his people knew God better than me. In fact many people were impressed by my understanding. My friends did not know how I got invited to meet so many people. But I hope that in some way they are better for it. But talking and asking each other questions I know helped me. We do have different definitions for what BBQ is
